Do you ever feel beat up in the day? Ever heard yourself utter, "how long O Lord, how long?" I remember with acute vividness a defining moment in my parenting world. It was right after the birth of my second daughter. I looked at her, all sweet and pudgy-cheeked. I scooped her up towards my chest and cried. Yep. Cried. The reality of who I was as a person, as a parent had been revealed to me already. I knew that I couldn't promise her that I would never get angry with her or raise a harsh voice. No, I had discovered that after my first child. I didn't know I couldn't be perfect. I had all those good examples around me. I was intentionally raising my daughter in God's way. How could I not be perfect? I didn't understand. I didn't understand grace. I didn't know that God would fill in all the gaps, fill up all the leaks. What mom needs the Savior when she's got "it" all together? Can I say it. I'm hopeful in all my weakness. He shows up so brilliantly in my darkness!
Experience has taught me not to make a promise I couldn't keep. However, I did (and still do now that I have teenagers!) point them to Jesus Christ. He's the Rock. He does the impossible really well. Look to Him kids. He won't disappoint you.
2 comments:
Mama....you inspire me to love Jesus more and more. i know it's so so hard for all of us right now. but i love you...and thank you for teaching me the most important part of my life: that i am not defined by my sins and failures, but by a Savior who loves me and gave Himself for me. thank you for being my best friend and sister.
love... forever!!
thank you precious hannah. you are truly becoming a dear, dear friend to me. i am at the place now where i listen to godly, mature wisdom coming out of my baby girl? and how did you grow up so fast right in front of me? thank you honey. God will be faithful.
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